The Luckiest

A couple days ago I found the DVD of our wedding. We hadn't watched it in years - a decade maybe?

I was struck by so many things. How handsome G was - he made my heart flutter! I think I fell in love with him all over again just experiencing him like that. No wonder I couldn't wait to marry that man!

He was so full of life and energy and oh so sweet and tender to me.

After the ceremony and the pictures he sang to me. It was a surprise. His brother M played piano and we sat on two chairs nearby facing each other while family and friends in the wedding looked on.

G had a gorgeous voice. He sang at our ministry's weekly meeting for years and he sang at our friends weddings. He would play piano in the basement of the music department and sing to me when we were dating. Yet another thing that made me fall for him.

The wedding video of him singing The Luckiest by Ben Folds made my heart swell and made me want to hug him and kiss him and hold him. He was so romantic. Loved me so very much.

These are the lyrics:

I don't get many things right the first time In fact, I am told that a lot Now I know all the wrong turns, the stumbles and falls Brought me here

And where was I before the day That I first saw your lovely face? Now I see it everyday And I know

That I am I am I am The luckiest

What if I'd been born 50 years before you In a house on a street where you lived? Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bike Would I know?

And in a white sea of eyes I see one pair that I recognize And I know

That I am I am I am The luckiest

I love you more than I have ever found a way to say to you

Next door there's an old man who lived to his 90's And one day passed away in his sleep And his wife, she stayed for a couple of days And passed away

I'm sorry, I know that's a strange way to tell you that I know we belong That I know

That I am I am I am The luckiest

We do belong, G. From the very first I knew it. You knew it. I long to be with you again - but this time with Jesus and everything made new. I am the luckiest because I married you - a man who loved me with all his heart.

My heart throbs as this song runs through my head over and over again. Lord Jesus, please don't make it long before I'm with him again. And if it has to be, please make me strong.