Naps are Necessary

It's weird how exhausting grief is. Emotionally and mentally I am just spent. Add to that not sleeping well, dreaming about G and waking up feeling exhausted, having a hard time falling asleep. Then there's the constant demands of being a single mom with a child at home in a pandemic.

I've noticed that I do not do well on days when I skip a nap. I am just too depleted by the end of the day. Short on patience, with fried nerves. Bed time is so late that I'm with P from 7am-10pm (at the earliest) every day with a 1 hour "rest time" on some days. 15 hours of non-stop chatter, demands, needs, complaints, snuggles, tickles, talking, etc. from a 6 year old is exhausting. Gosh am I glad I have him. But goodness does he take it all out of me.

So I'm trying to give myself more freedom to nap. Yeah, I get less done. But I feel better able to cope and I'm a better mom. And those are the two most important things right now: coping and being a good mom for P.