Company Makes a Difference

My brother in law came today. P and I have been alone for 9 days - our longest stretch so far. It has been HARD for both of us.

Having UT here has been wonderful.

I laughed today, a lot! Having another adult to make eye contact with when something happens, to share funny moments with, to joke around with. Goodness did it feel good to laugh. I even belly laughed when we were playing with P's drone and UT was screaming and running away from it. So funny. So good to laugh.

I had breaks! I worked on email and wrote a blog post that was swimming in my head in the middle of the day. I did dishes without someone constantly talking to me (P). I felt less mentally drained.

The house wasn't so quiet. Having someone else here eases the pain of the emptiness without G. No one replaces G. But it just doesn't feel the same. When it's just me and P, it's so obvious that we are doing things that the three of us would've done, but now we are alone.

I got to talk to UT for a few minutes about the school decision I have coming up.

Two people could comfort P when he was crying because G is gone.

Having company makes a huge difference. I wouldn't want it all the time. We need the quiet weeks to help us grieve. But these weeks in between are such a good break from the intensity of grief and loneliness.