Sad

Tonight I feel sad. So, so sad. And down. Depressed.

I feel overwhelmed. I feel alone. I feel like those who care don't understand how to show it.

I feel disappointed that my mom has her own worries and isn't proactively there for me.

I feel like the weight of all the legal things, financial things, and just ALL THE THINGS is crushing.

Deep sadness. A tremendous loss.

Nearly 18 years together. And he's gone.