G loved the 4th of July. Not because he was very patriotic but because he loved fireworks. As a kid, he poured over fireworks catalogs,...

Today marks our 14th anniversary. G isn't here but I still feel married to him in my heart. I wear my rings and cannot imagine taking...

It's our first Father's Day without G. I woke up feeling numb to this. Yesterday was full of grief and sorrow. A wave of grief hit. So...

Being with others helps. I need to remember that. It's something I dread a lot of the time. Rarely is there space for a grieving widow...

Usually G would wake up before me on my birthday (one of the RARE days he did this) and let me sleep in. Or if he didn't wake up first,...

It's the night before my 36th birthday. My first birthday that I won't celebrate with G since I turned 20. We started dating when I was...

At first I think it was just wrapping my mind around the reality that G was gone. He died. He DIED. Just comprehending that. He's not...

Today was G's first birthday in Heaven. It is late and I am really tired but I wanted to write down some things about today. I gave P...