I'm sitting on the bed with candy wrappers next to me having just spent an hour looking up stupid reality TV gossip online. I'm numbing...

There have been new hard things being at my sister's house. Hers is the first family that we've visited that resembles what ours used to...

G was chronically ill for over a decade. Really, starting in 2008 we began dealing with quickly worsening, scary health situations. He...

I'm an introvert. When G was alive I needed some time alone. I woke up in the morning before P and G so that I could have my coffee,...

We started our big trip yesterday. 6.5 hours in the car with a stop at a little zoo. I am so proud of myself for doing it. First road...

There's nothing quite like falling in love. I've been going through an album of pictures from college that starts in the very first days...

I'm tired tonight. During the day I often think of things I want to write about. I'm trying to write every day to catalog this journey...

It's weird how exhausting grief is. Emotionally and mentally I am just spent. Add to that not sleeping well, dreaming about G and...

Today was rough. So many emotions. So tired of everything and every day being so hard. It hit me at the cardiologist this morning that I...

Today I gave G's car to a family friend who is in need of one for her new job. One of the first things, practical things, I thought of...

Hey Sweetie, Gosh do I miss you. I'm sitting here at the table in your chair. The chair you sat in on the morning of the day you would...

I think grief is aging me. I've always looked young for my age. "Good genes" I would say. My maternal side of the family looks younger...

We. It implies so much. Being a part of a unit. Belonging with someone else. Sharing a life. Sharing decisions. Sharing traditions. ...

Tonight we came home from a trip to an empty house for the second time. Last time I was unprepared for how hard it would be. This time I...

Tonight I finished a quilt for my son that I made out of G's bandanas. G started wearing bandanas on his head the summer before his...

We went skiing today at the slope in my hometown. I haven't been since I was in middle school and it was P's first time. This was...

How do you catalogs a life? How do you record the moments, the memories - big and small - that make up a person? What about the less...

Tonight I feel sad. So, so sad. And down. Depressed. I feel overwhelmed. I feel alone. I feel like those who care don't understand...

The final pine tree near our townhouse was cut down today. G loved those trees. G loved trees. Anything big and mighty and old -...

I'm so thankful for counseling. It's hard. But good for me to gain perspective - especially with the disappointment I received...