Today I turn 38. Greg will always be 35. These numbers feel so strange. He was always 12 days older than me. How can I now be 3 years...

G didn't care a lot about stuff. Didn't need a nice car or a big home. Preferred a worn-in t-shirt and a dinged up table. Through his...

It's the second day of fall, and the first day that it feels like it. I'm sitting here wearing a fleece jacket, jeans, and my favorite...

She always treated him like a grandson. He always loved her like a grandmother. Maybe it's easier when you aren't related by blood and...

A friend recently asked me why I still believe in God after everything I've been through. It was a genuine question, asked from a place...

I'm starting to share our story. Beyond this blog (which at this point has no readers!). I've had a secret Facebook account for a while...

In the early days of grief, I felt like people were treating me like a puppy or perhaps a toddler. As if they could somehow get excited ...

Why is a big question. And it's one I don't like to ask. Because there aren't any answers on this side of Heaven. Why did G die? Why...

I had an incredible husband. A really, really good one. He was not perfect. Of course not. His sin nature, his humanity, was all to...

God gives us protection and provision. No - God IS our protection and provision. As I've been chasing down this relationship with HW...

This hurts. I woke up and it still hurts. But it does feels a little different - or maybe I'm just getting some clarity. I tried way too...

Today I'm taking a big leap. A trust fall off a cliff, waiting for Jesus to catch me. We fly to Bogota, Colombia today. First time back...

It's April. The month I've been dreading. The month I've tried to put off by looking the other way, not flipping the calendar to take a...

Shortly after G died, I began hearing the metaphor that grief comes in waves. It recedes and comes, recedes and comes, over and over...

“But no one except Lucy knew that as it circled the mast it had whispered to her, "Courage, dear heart," and the voice, she felt sure,...

G is more than okay. I need to remember this. There are moments when I want him back. Other moments when I worry about what he would...

What do I need... I mean really need... to survive this life? I used to think (let's go back to high school here) that it was my horse. ...

We tend to obsess over finding God's will for our lives. I see this all the time in the college students that I work with. One season is...

Only Jesus can tell me who I am Only Jesus sees Only Jesus loves me fully with a love that can satisfy Only Jesus knows my future Only...

We went to St. Thomas in January of 2020. I was so worried. So many things could go wrong. What if G got Zika? What if he had a health...