I woke up feeling okay. After wrapping my mind around what day it was (the usual wake up and figure out what's on my plate for the day)...

Today I turn 38. Greg will always be 35. These numbers feel so strange. He was always 12 days older than me. How can I now be 3 years...

Imagine standing on a concrete floor holding a big, clear mirror in your hands. And then dropping it and watching it smash onto the...

I've been reading through the blog we kept when G was waiting for his transplant. It is surreal. Sept. 30, 2010 I wrote all about his...

It's the second day of fall, and the first day that it feels like it. I'm sitting here wearing a fleece jacket, jeans, and my favorite...

I feel like God is leading me in a new direction. I've been trying to hold on to the life that I had with G. As if holding on to that...

It still hurts. Rejection, feeling messed with, feeling cast aside. But I think I dodged a bullet. I met HW and it felt good to feel a...

Today would be 15 years of marriage. 15 years since we said I do. I've had this song in my head by Andrew Peterson since I woke up this...

I'm starting to share our story. Beyond this blog (which at this point has no readers!). I've had a secret Facebook account for a while...

In the early days of grief, I felt like people were treating me like a puppy or perhaps a toddler. As if they could somehow get excited ...

I realized today that I can't find my future while I'm running away from my past. Life has changed so much since G died - this is true. ...

I've been feeling that old feeling again. That pit in my stomach. The nausea I associate with losing G. The constant, unending feeling...

It's time to tell our story. When we began our heart transplant journey in January of 2010, we felt so alone. Being listed for a heart...

My goodness, how is my boy finishing 2nd grade tomorrow? A grade that G wasn't here for at all. He's up to my shoulders now and growing...

I've spent 2.5 hours today crying and processing all that God is doing in my heart. My counselor says this is a landmark day. Like the...

Why is a big question. And it's one I don't like to ask. Because there aren't any answers on this side of Heaven. Why did G die? Why...

I need a new dream. I've been waiting for someone to give one to me, and I've felt aimless. Maybe remarriage has become my new dream. ...

I had an incredible husband. A really, really good one. He was not perfect. Of course not. His sin nature, his humanity, was all to...

It hurts to be ignored. It just does. Back in the winter, when I had trouble in my house and sent HW a text, he responded right away and...

God gives us protection and provision. No - God IS our protection and provision. As I've been chasing down this relationship with HW...