It still hurts. Rejection, feeling messed with, feeling cast aside. But I think I dodged a bullet. I met HW and it felt good to feel a...

Yesterday P went to his second day-long grief camp, nearly a year after his first. I've tried to look back in my memory of what it was...

I realized today that I can't find my future while I'm running away from my past. Life has changed so much since G died - this is true. ...

I've been feeling that old feeling again. That pit in my stomach. The nausea I associate with losing G. The constant, unending feeling...

My goodness, how is my boy finishing 2nd grade tomorrow? A grade that G wasn't here for at all. He's up to my shoulders now and growing...

I need a new dream. I've been waiting for someone to give one to me, and I've felt aimless. Maybe remarriage has become my new dream. ...

I had an incredible husband. A really, really good one. He was not perfect. Of course not. His sin nature, his humanity, was all to...

It hurts to be ignored. It just does. Back in the winter, when I had trouble in my house and sent HW a text, he responded right away and...

God gives us protection and provision. No - God IS our protection and provision. As I've been chasing down this relationship with HW...

It is amazing how much can be revealed in a day. A day of letting it soak in that whatever relationship I thought I had with HW and...

This hurts. I woke up and it still hurts. But it does feels a little different - or maybe I'm just getting some clarity. I tried way too...

I was friend-zoned but I was doubting it. After all, the next day he was flirting with me over text again like nothing had happened. So...

I was friend-zoned HARD last night It stings. It's disappointing. My friendship with HW has grown since we first met in November and our...

I've been really brave lately. Booking flights and planning trips without G. He always did these things for us. Getting ready to go out...

Yesterday I was talking to a friend about fear. Fears that I have for the future - for any changes that I might make. I look back and I...

Psalm 139 has been a favorite of mine since college - maybe even high school. In those years as I struggled with my identity, this Psalm...

(written 2/10/22 - posted late) Yesterday was triggering. HW let me know that his kids won't be returning to the same school that they...

2.0 People talk about finding your 2.0. Whether they mean your new life or a new person to share your life with, it's a common phrase in...

Here we are again. It's Valentine's Day. Last year it was on a Sunday. I doubt we watched the service online that week. Some days it...

A picture brought back a flood of memories. Christmas morning 2018. P opening a gift. G sitting up beside him - but slumped over...